Three ring circus

Do you ever feel like you are standing in the middle of a three-ring circus?  There is so much going on around you that you are not sure if the elephants are coming out, the tightrope walkers are in the air, or if the motorcycles are going into the steel cage.   Infertility often puts us standing right there in the middle of the three ring circus not having any idea what is going on or what is coming next.

Infertility takes the three-ring circus to a completely new level because no ones three ring circus is the same.  I found myself standing in the middle of that three ring circus, as did Andrea, and you may have as well.  It becomes more difficult because none of us have the exact same circus.  Therefore, we feel alone because even if our friend has infertility her story is completely different that ours.

Can I let you in on a secret – you are not alone that is just satan trying to make you feel like you are.  Satan tries to make us feel broken, inadequate, alone, and not worthy.  Don’t buy those lies!  You are wonderfully made, you are a child of God, and you are worth the life of Jesus!

In those moments of the circus going wild where do you turn?  Even if your friend has a different circus, talk to her.  If your spouse isn’t aware of the circus going on in your mind, talk to him.  If you need a professional to talk to, do it!  Most importantly talk to your creator about it, God wants you to talk to Him.  He knew you before you were ever created, he loved you even before you were created, and he even knew you would have fertility issues before you were created.  Talk to Him, He already knows your thoughts, wants, and wishes; He still wants you to talk to Him.  How worthy does that make us that He wants us to talk to Him!

What is going on in your circus? Is the tent just being put up, are the acts going on all around you, or are the people leaving the show?


Adult lesson from Vacation Bible School

I am a crew leader for 3-5 years old during my church’s vacation Bible school.  Last night was our first night, and boy did it speak to us as adults as well.  I am often amazed by how God relates everything back to ourselves, our lives, and our journey.

As adults we find our own faults and focus on those.  My hair is too straight, or too curly.  I do not like the freckles on my face.  I do not like the size of my chest, waist, or any other body part.  We then focus on these parts because we do not like them.  Have you ever stepped back to think that God created your body.  He knew how your hair, your face, and your body would be.  I am not saying just let yourself go and not take care of yourself because God made it, as we still need to take care of our body.  I am just saying that God loves us just as we are, so why do we not love ourselves?

God also knew that we would have infertility, so how do we handle that aspect?  God had a plan when he created us the way that he did.  We may not know that plan, but He does. He knew every part of our body just look at what the Bible tells us.

“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.”   Jeremiah 1:5 (NIV) 

For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. 
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful,
I know that full well. 
My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. 
Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written
in your book before one of them came to be. 
How precious to me are your thoughts, God! How vast is the sum of them! 
Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand— when I awake, I am still with you.  Psalm 139:13-18
You are probably wondering how this connects to vacation Bible school.  The memory verse for the children was Amazingly and Wonderfully Made (Psalm 139:13-16).  They had the children repeating I am wonderfully made Psalm 139:14.  To stand in a room with around 20 children yelling I am wonderfully made brought tears to my eyes.  Why can’t we as adults see it that way?  Why is it so hard for us to be content with our bodies.  I know the hurt and the pain of our bodies has a huge impact on our lives, but shouldn’t God have a bigger impact on our lives?
Later in the night they would ask the kids who made you and the kids would respond “God made me”.  They would scream this at the top of their lungs because of their joy in this statement.  We as adults need to remember that God made us too!  We need to be screaming that with excitement, we need to tell the world that, and tell each other that God made them as well.
I hope today you will take the time to remind yourself that you are wonderfully made by God!  How amazing is that to hear on a Monday morning!
Have a beautiful day!
~ Chrissy